FOGGY FEELINGS

Good evening everyone !

It has been a year since I wrote here. Yesterday when I was filming a vlog on my channel I made a promise. I promised myself that I will start filming more videos. Because I love making videos. And today while I was editing I saw the bookmark to my blog. I remember when I used to write here (well not this blog but one of my old blogs) almost daily. And I loved writing here. 

I wonder where all that passion went?

Did I let school/work to rule my day? 

Was I lazy? Was I tired?

Did I spent my day being unproductive while I could've been writing or filming? 

Answer to all of those is yes. I did let school to rule my day "Because my school day would take almost 12 hours of my day" in the worst scenario. I was lazy " 'Cause I had a exhausting day at work". I spent my days off playing games and watching youtube " 'Cause I have nothing else to do". 

I let my everyday life to fill my brain. All I could think how much time I would spent at school or work tomorrow. My creativity has plummeted and I have a hard time to think new makeup looks to film. And why? 'Cause I haven't been playing with makeup because I think I don't have time. 

This summer and fall I have juggled two jobs at a same time. Which made me think that the days when i don't have work I will spend doing nothing.  So I did nothing.  

But from this day forward I want to write more. I want to film more. I want get my creativity back.

And I decided to take a blog challenge for the next 15 days. Usually they are 30 days but I decided to cut it down so there isn't that much pressure. And so I don't get bored which could happen also. 

By the way. All of the pictures here I took today on my way to work. It has been mega foggy for the past weeks here. But I'm so happy that the fall is here. I love the dark nights and streets that are fully covered in colorful leaves. Also it's time to splurge on candles. 

See ya tomorrow !

 - Johanna